Tuesday, October 14, 2008;
Despite the fact that:
1) it is 5am in the morning and I should be sleeping,
2) I NEED to write a response paper that is due less than 7 hours later,
3) I've got an insanely long day later and I NEED TO SLEEP ASAP!
I have decided to blog. Not only because I haven't blogged since the last century and the few people who care have been asking me to update my blog, but more importantly, because I finally have something interesting to share with the Whole Wide World. Yes, my life thus far has been very miserable and generally uninteresting =p
Ladies and gentlemen, I hereby present to you... the Coolest License Agreement I have come across *applause* =D From the license agreement of Spybot - Search and Destroy:
Dedication Public License (DPL)
By downloading the archive, you confirm your agreement in this license.
I. Freeware
First of all, the reasons why Spybot-S&D is free:
I.a. Dedication
Spybot-S&D is dedicated to the most wonderful girl on earth :)
I.b. Binary
What do you get if you buy software? Lots of ones and zeros, nothing more. If they were distributed as art, I could understand paying it. But if the main goal of their order is to earn money - by fees or ads - I don't like it!
I.c. Conclusion
This means that I grant you the license to use Spybot-S&D as much as you like. But if you like it, I ask two things of you: say a prayer for me (and the most wonderful girl while you're at it ;) ) to your god - or whatever you believe - and wish us some luck.
I'm sure many of you out there don't bother to read the license agreements found at the start of any software installation... usually I just browse through to see if there's any difference that might catch my eye. Thankfully this one was different right from the start, hehe.
But whatever the case, don't you all agree that it's very very sweet?? He created an extremely useful software (or at least widely used?) and not only does he not charge for it, he dedicates it "to the most wonderful girl on earth". He not only shows his appreciation and love for her, he makes it known to people throughout the world! And he remembers his beloved in his prayer =)
Still, the coolest part is that everybody HAS to agree that she IS the most wonderful girl on earth to be able to use his program, mwahahaha... =D Now do you see why I like geeks? They rock! =p
For those who wonder how I've been doing since I came to NUS... well, life has its ups and downs. In fact, the past half a year hasn't been going smoothly for me. But you know what they say, when one door closes, another one opens, and I guess when all doors close, I can climb through windows =) And of course, they say what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Praise the Lord for making everything possible, for granting me loans when I didn't get a single scholarship. Even though I reproach myself everyday for not being able to get anything the one time I get perfect results, I am still thankful I've been given a chance to study in this university. It's just that I don't know if I'll ever be able to do so well ever again, considering how competitive it is here. Perfect, flawless results! Straight A's, 4.0! What are my chances of getting on the dean's list here, never mind 4.0?? The money I could have saved for my parents all gone, and instead I get myself heavily in debt and increase their financial burden when they're not exactly in the pink of health anymore. Arghh... ='(
Why... why did I lose my senses and go through with my plans to study at NUS? I've always told myself I would never study in Singapore if I didn't get any scholarship... why did I lose focus?? Why is it so hard to pluck myself out of this beautiful dream once I stepped inside.... If I had studied at UM, I still stand a chance of getting scholarship. There are undoubtedly more scholarships for those pursuing further studies locally, and my results are obviously more valued locally than in a place where I am considered a foreigner. If I'm studying in UM right now, I could have tried for the HP-AMD scholarship, I could have gotten higher consideration for the Goh Lum Eng Educational Fund (GLEEF). Heck, I wouldn't even need the scholarship so desperately in the first place! My stupidity baffles me at times, which is why I've never been very proud of my results no matter how perfect it is.
Still, no matter how severely I reproach myself for landing myself in my current plight, life has to go on. I can only pray God heals my myopic vision and help me see further ahead, instead of taking things one step at a time only to find I've been walking towards the edge of the cliff.
Thank you, Dennis, for all your help in pulling me back up when I stumbled and fell off the cliff....
For daily need there is daily grace; for sudden need, sudden grace, and for overwhelming need, overwhelming grace.
-John Blanchard
Rest. Rest. Rest in God's love. The only work you are required now to do is to give your most intense attention to His still, small voice within.
-Madame Jeanne Guyon
Ahh... comforting words in times of hopelessness and utter despair.
Pray, and let God worry.
-William Law
Smiled at this quote, 'cause I imagined all of us praying to God and He starts to panic at the sheer amount of work laid out for Him, because of our human foibles. But it's only my imagination attempting to make me see the bright side of things. God is almighty =)
stuck on you
5:01 am
1 Hugs
Hey Margaret!! *muaks*
There, i've posted a kiss.. ;)
Glad to know u're hanging in there.. and looking at the bright side of things. Wish i was there to shine more light for you tho.. sighs... Somehow i think no matter how "stupid" u were to make the "wrong decision" of sticking to NUS, you made the BEST choice for your future. Definitely. Stop reproaching urself k? No regrets. =)
Give a hug
sleepy, at
3:32 pm, October 14, 2008
